After I decided to take another scary leap out of my comfort zone, I then had to figure out how to get started.  I had no idea how to do network marketing, and because of previous experiences, I was really insecure about it.  I had never done anything like this before.  I secretly felt really excited about this new challenge, but at the same time, I was torn.  I had a lot of old feelings and negativity to undo.  I was so uncomfortable with the fact that I was starting a relationship marketing business, that I’m not sure I approached it the best way at first.  I needed to ease myself into this.  While I may not have done it right, at least I did something.  I shared my message in a way that allowed me to feel comfortable, and it was the best I could do at the time.

Where to begin?

I was flooded with a barrage of mixed emotions. I had no idea in hell what I was doing.  I wondered… how do I talk to people?  How can I share this without turning people away, scaring them off, and making myself unwelcome?  Will I annoy my friends?  What if I get rejected?  I hate being rejected.  And on the other hand… what if I can help people change their lives?  I know this product is great, and all I need to do is share that.  I made lists of people in my head who I thought this would be perfect for; people who seriously wanted change but were scared or unable to make a big move all at once.  The trick was finding out if these people on my list felt the same way about the plans I had for them.

I didn’t even share it with many of my good friends.  I didn’t know how, and I was afraid of being judged.

Like I said, I think I took the wrong approach at first.  I didn’t even tell the first few people I approached that I had already signed up.  I just couldn’t.  (Although technically, I started sharing it a few days before I signed up.)  I was too worried about what they’d think of me.  Instead, I said, “I’m thinking about doing this business.  Could you take a look at this and tell me what you think?”  And then I’d go on and on about how I wasn’t sure about it and uncomfortable with the business model, but that I loved the product so much… blah, blah, blah.  I may have been pretty pathetic, but at least I did something.  And I was surprised to receive some very positive feedback!  I needed that.  Otherwise, who knows what I would have done.

Scattered in with some uncomfortable moments, I did have a few that weren’t so pathetic.  A few times, I effortlessly expressed excitement about the possibilities.  Somehow, what I was doing worked.  My first teammate joined me right away, and I even got a few customers!  It seemed like things were going pretty well at first.

I didn’t know what I was doing, but I did know that what I lacked in confidence was balanced out with a willingness to accept a challenge, a lot of hope, a desire to learn and grow, and the drive to never give up.